Saturday, December 19, 2015

The only certainty is change

This month, December 2015, it is three years ago that Roberto and me started our journey, after we fell in love - a little more than four years ago - on the blue Ecuadorian ocean shore. Our encounter was not only love on first sight, but a cross-pollination that changed our lives forever, fortifying our longing to lead a different life than what most modern societies demand. 

The result was a travel and life experiment we baptised 'navigate on trust;' meaning trusting in life and ourselves, let the present moment be our guide, while using our hearts as our compass. We had no big savings and no particular destination in mind - only the intention and desire to be together, connect and share with people, and encounter new ideas and insights. It meant detaching to physical and material things as much as possible, and embrace uncertainty to the fullest - giving up our attachment to specific results and destinations and let life handle the details. But, it also meant living the years like it were our last, enjoying our love, life, and nature, even when we didn’t know the outcome. 

That the outcome would be this - Roberto's death on December 6 - and we would separate our physical existence together is, the least to say, the ultimate super challenge of that philosophy. I hope that that same philosophy will fill the hole in my heart, give me the strength to keep going, and lead me safely into the future without my great great love and life teacher on my side. 

I will continue 'navigate on trust' and try to understand, investigate, and live it even more profound and dedicate all the good that it will bring to him.

My love: nothing lasts forever, except for love, and especially ours. I know we are together always.

- Fenja

1 comment:

  1. I too lost the one person I loved most on this planet. I managed to survive and finally to live again. For you it is still to soon to begin living, but I hope that you can survive until you thrive again.